How much suffering is necessary for beauty – true beauty? If beauty is completeness mustn’t we test the limits to know the fullness of being complete. Couldn’t a being existing in the middle of a circle believe himself to be living in a square if the limits are never tested?
Can real love push the limits, or is it only the expediency of suffering – suffering that throws us against our limits - that maks us aware of them? It is in those moments we have to test the question of why we are living, it is in those moments we have to realize that we choose life with more feeling and suffering that we would choose death.
How much suffering is necessary to get there – to create this beauty? If you want to be beautiful suffer. Know how complete you can be, let the full feelings out and then, only then, can the rational truly test, limit, and order, our humanness.
We can only glimpse chaos in the heart of turmoil, and only through turmoil. I don’t think we are as alert to this chaos when we are happy. Chaos is the root of beauty – it is the ethereal which we are all attracted to. The siren song. Why did they sing? Weren’t they also punished by their beauty? Never able to feel the embrace of the love and desire they created in men. Wouldn’t that be the ultimate punishment, to watch your future lovers die in front of you because of your song?
Why do are hearts race when we feel the most? Is it because in those moments we are living to the fullest?
Maybe depressives know something we don’t, and feel something we don’t – perhaps they live more. It is only the drugs that make them numb, if they were allowed I am sure they feel more than most of us imagine.